Archive for August, 2013

The Phase

When I wrote last week’s post about enjoying the foods that I can have, I forgot about “the phase”. When I reset my eating program, I usually have to stop eating so much. And that voice in my head urges me to eat BECAUSE I CAN’T. It’s not like a craving it is the literal urge to put food in my mouth. (part of it is probably boredom). But for the first part of the week, I was making circles in my apartment because I would walk to the kitchen and walk back out). Until I get used to the eating less part, I’ve been compensating with fruits and vegetables. So when I can’t resist any longer, I’m snacking on nectarines instead of chips, or nuts, or whatever. But the ultimate goal is to eat when I’m hungry.

Believe it or not, I purchased a carton of Edy’s Slow Churned Sugar-Free Ice Cream. I’ve been keeping my serving sizes to half a cup per day. The deal I made with myself is if I get crazy, I have to throw it out.

This week, my weight is 159, so I’m down a pound.


My number this week on the scale was 160.5. Ok, fine. It is really time for me to buckle down, because the truth is, I’m kind of over this mediocrity. It is time for me to act like I’m trying to lose weight. One of the things that is really sticking in my craw is all of the things that I will have to give up:

Wine (all alcohol, really)
Fried (fill in the blank)

Don’t get me wrong, I believe in moderation, eventually I can have the slice of pizza or the glass of wine, or the fried chicken. But the way I’m feeling right now, in this moment, I’ll want it all. And not the sensible healthy versions. But instead of focusing on what’s unavailable, I should focus on all of the healthy foods that I can eat, and the ones that I know I can enjoy in moderation:

Concord grapes. When I was a kid, my grandparents used to have grapevine on their farm. When I went to visit in late August before school started up again, I could eat the grapes right off the vine. They’re only available for a short time, and they are worth the price.

Cheese. It wasn’t until I began trying to lose weight that I realized exactly how special cheese is. And it is one of the great things that you don’t need much of to enjoy. A dab of blue cheese, feta, or goat cheese hits the spot. Don’t get me wrong, I don’t do fat free cheese. There is something about the way that fat coats your tongue that makes me feel satisfied.

Garlic.  Because you can smell it before you can even taste it, garlic adds an “interestingness” to your food that reminds me that healthy food does not have to be boring. Onion falls into this category as well.

Kale. Kale is the veggie du jour, and at the ripe old age of 35, eating it is about as close as I’m going to get to being trendy. I prefer my kale sautéed with a little garlic and onion. But since recipes are all over Pinterest I’m sure I’ll come up with several interesting ways to eat it.

Bacon. Like cheese, a little bit of bacon can go a long way. I don’t need 5 slices of bacon to feel like I’m treating myself. One slice with a poached egg and sautéed mushrooms makes me feel like a foodie, not a dieter. And bacon makes everything better, so I can try it with almost any whole food.

Believe it or not, I think I just came up with my grocery list for this week! See you next week.

Did you see Chantell on last week’s Extreme Makeover? She decided to take up running because it was the thing she hated the most. I hate running too, so her perspective threw me off. Why would I do anything that I hate — by choice? But you’ve seen the scale go up, so maybe a new perspective would lead to a different result.

This past week, I’ve added a run/walk to my workout. In addition, I’ve made it to yoga class Friday, Saturday, Sunday, Monday, and Tuesday. That means double workouts some days.

I should point out here that I have an exerise allergy. It sounds funny, but it is legitimate. If I walk for more than 10 minutes on the treadmill, I’ll start to itch. For me, it’s not a huge deal, but it does present an obstacle. When I workout on the treadmill daily, it doesn’t become an issue, but if I stop getting on the treadmill for a week or so, getting back on becomes a process.

When people get allergy shots, they are injected with a small dose of allergen so that their body can build a resistance. Regular walks on the treadmill have the same effect. So, missing a workout is unacceptable when I’m trying to build up my resistance. I started by walking 10 minutes on the treadmill in addition to 30 minutes on the elliptical. Now, after, a week or so, I will walk for 3 minutes and then run for two between the 5 minute and 20 minute mark. So, that hasn’t really shown up on the scale yet. But I’ve been making moves.

So imagine my surprise when I get on the scale and it says 163.5. REALLY? Because as I stood on the scale, I was hungry. As I type this I am hungry. That’s bullshit.

I know what you’re thinking, what did she eat? I won’t pretend that I spent the whole week munching on veggies and lean meats. But I know my body enough to know that when the scale says 161.5 on Monday, and it says 163.5 on Wednesday, that’s some bullshit. When you’re at the point in weight loss that I am, where I only have 10 lbs to go (well, 13.5 now), it is important that I am meticulous in my weight loss. I haven’t been meticulous. I went to Starbucks yesterday, and though I wanted it — really wanted it — I abstained from getting a sweet treat to go with my short skinny vanilla latte. So that doesn’t really show up on the scale, but I know that I’m making progress.

This week, I need to set eating properly as a priority — go to the grocery store, cook for the week, and keep a food journal.